30/01/26 Hope, I am happier then I ever was. Life has never been this good. Strangely enough I've never been closer to tregady, but it doesn't feel inevitable anymore.
31/01/26 How should a website look? I don't like chaos. I want the website to be visually minimalistic.
10/02/26 I'm getting back into writing. I probably won't be working on this site for now. Also I genrated an image through python which I think is cool. I'll add that one here as background. The image on the homepage is also genrated through python
01/04/26 The first message is so cringe. I would delete it but I promised myself I'd never do that.... btw I'm not as hopeful now. Doesn't matter tho cuz emotions are highly influenced by the stresses and enviorment of your daily life. Now that I have felt both chronic hope and chronic dispair so intimately, I have more stable inner voice of reason. On another note, I wonder if anyone has read this... there have been 275 views on this site so some people must have read the previous messeges. The internet loves to use water matphors, I would consider this messeage like a message in a bottle. The good thing about internet anonamyty is that I can be alot more sincere then I could irl. Thanks you for reading.
23/04/2026 Today, I went down a sort of rabbit hole. It started from a beautiful desktop wallpaper. I wanted to create something similar to it, so I went looking for it's source. Long story short, I found the original artist SuicideBySafetyPin on deviant art and facebook. Her profile was 19 years old and had alot of amazing art. I was looking for any clue on how her art was made so that I could emulate it. I was contemplating weather or not to message and ask her directly. Eventually I reached the comments of her latest facebook post. There I came to the heart breaking realization that Light Inktomi aka SuicideBySafetyPin had passed away atleast 5 years ago. The last post was from her mom.
Why do artist die so young?